You don't know me but I want to tell you a few words because you deserve it and because saying "thank you" isn't enough to express how grateful I am for you coming into my life without even being really on it !
You have made such an impact on my life. Seeing you from where you're coming from and where you're now it's just amazing and it can be a bit crazy what I'm telling you but I would not be the person I am today without you and I know that you will keep inspiring me to become an even better version of myself. Again we don't know each other BUT I KNOW YOU. YOU ARE A VERY GENEROUS,  OPEN , BIG HEART PERSON.

but I feel that as a woman what you have in life should be all love and no hate or people wanting something from you all the time.
I know I difficult is to find someone that's going to be there for you without asking nothing on return.
All that through cute video's and photos you just make me realise everyday that if you could do it, I can do it ! We all can.
Money its important but when we dead we left all back. We came alone we go alone so it's
always important to establish relationships where you can trust your life with.
You have taught me that you don't always have to strong. You are allowed to break down as
long as you pick yourself back up and keep moving forward. When life had you at your worst
moments, you allowed yourself to be happy and that's really what matters . Even in your darkest
hour you showed so much strength.
Now the reason why I'm writing you it's because I really dont know what to do with my life
anymore and I think that this is a good moment to ask for help as a women.
I'm living in the Netherlands for the past 5 years. I'm 26 Portuguese born in Albufeira from
my dad side and African from my mom's side. I have also a mix with Greek and Italy from my
grandparents what makes people think that I'm from all part off the world . I reased myself
alone staring from 14 and whent living with my husband at 17 , yeah it's crazy but for someone
like us living all at the beach and being neighbors from each other was for me easier being by his
grandparents then by my grandparents. Oh yeah because I still didn't told you but my mother
always had a drugs addiction and my father has always been the city's Casanova, he was 7
different kids from 7 different woman in 4 different countries and my mother well when I was 16
shes came at my house pregnant, delivered the baby on my bathroom and left me my babysitter
to take care off. So you can imagine that living with parents like that it's not always easy so
I'm actually grateful that they give me to my nana when I was 6 months old . Actually my father
tried to sell me before I was born but the bitch he was pumping was BFF of my mother who told
my mother what kind off plans he had for me ! She could run before something happend and
so I was given to my grandparents. But again they also are very busy people , always working
and when they got there pension they start traveling letting me alone raising that little sister
my mother have had. I was 14 so I was just a kid at the time as well. So I started living with
my neighbors that happend to have a grandson named Noah . But when I turned 17 I said ok
now its enough and I went to study in France as nurse and I would come very vacation time to
Portugal.
The plan was after finishing medical assistance I would have at least a diploma but what i really
wanted to go further and open my own place but OFF COURSE nothing could go has planned
because YEAH it's my life !
(I did opened 2 bars a strip club and 1 restaurant but that was all in Portugal (algarve) and it only
gives you money for the summer and then you need to crave the all winter so that's not what I
had in mind . I wanted to go further take risks and be someone that people knew) but life didn't
go as planned.
So like I was explaining ...

That boy that I grow up was now asking me to date him but I'm working and studying far and
he's still in military training and I had never had a real relationship never been with another men
so i didn't want to take the shot but I start getting depressed living in a country (france) where
I don't know much , talking with him make my days much easier and little my little i really fall in
love with him.
JUST A REMARK:
(There in France I meet a lot of famous people like Lalgerino and Lafouine even let my cousins
build his mom's house bcause of metting me and the kind of people I'm. I give all I'm very loyal
and im a very funny en open person to be with and at the time I speak 7 laguages so was easier
to meet and speak with people all over the world when I needed to book a room in Spain or
something. Let me just said it was fun. Oh if I knew Instagram that time i would be a queen now.
)
SO NOW my husband:
We talked for 2 years and on summer vacation 2013 we ask me to married him ! We married ( i
was 19 at the time ) and moved to The Netherlands (oh yeah I forgot to tell you that my husband
is actually dutch but his mom build vacation houses in Portugal so he was raised there and just
like me also given to his grandparents).
Noah said let's try
Just one month later got pregnant from our first child Victor. We could be more happier
because being so confused about the life I would lead now with an unfinished education, no
home in the nand Joshua being in the military service was difficult but after we was born JUST
one week later I got pregnant from our 2nd child. A little girl we called Victoria. She was born on
the same year of 2014 what really heavy was for me but you gotta do what you gotta do right. .
I know that i don't believe in myself as much as you should but you make me unbelievably strong
and capable of anything i set my mind to.
Your passion to make a difference in the world is unbelievable. You put your heart and soul into it you can achieve and surpass any personal goal you could have set. Watching you do what you
love and watching you make a difference in the lives of others is an incredible experience. The way your face lights up when you finally realize what you have accomplished is breathtaking and
I hope that one day I can have just as much passion you have. Well I have it but it seems like it's
always the same l and I really lost motivation until I go to your story .
I'm sorry maybe you're like "wft who is this girl?" But I really mean what I'm saying.
Its mixed feeling because I love to see others making it but I get said about myself bcause I
dont know what I can do with my life right now I think I need some directions and if you could
give me 1 or 2 advices or tips that would help me a lot.
The love you have for your friends it's just unbelievable . Watching you interact with love through
hard times and still you make me smile. You are so comfortable and you are yourself.
I see a lot of you in me and that's the part I can't understand why I can't reach the same as you...
but I stay tune to you and keep my head up.
You love with all your heart and this quality is something I wished everyone could possessed.
You inspire me to be the best version of myself. I look up to you. I feel that more people should strive to have the strength and passion that you exemplify in everyday life.
What I told you was just 40% about that happend on my life...
I have never been more proud to know someone and to call some one my role model. You have taught me so many things and I want to thank you. Thank you for inspiring me in life. Thank you for making me want to be a better person and helping me on this journey only if it's with 1 euro.